I have finished the two books based on a new Magical working i have developed, plus a Graphic novel. The Novel came to mind during a Ritual at Nethybridge in the Cairngorms while i was working with Mitchell Edwards and Ian Hammond. The success of that Ritual allowed me to see information hadn’t really thought about in a long while.
I have tried to keep most of the Rituals secret and hidden although most of it pops up in the novel. I suppose 95% of the workings have been mashed up and mixed with the ingredients of the writing art, the actual process of smashing away at a keyboard. Even though the work was often interspersed with large scale abuse of Hallucinogens and Marijuana it still has a strange vibe that i think can only be completed by an Artist and the process of producing something akin to an adult comic.
It was already a ‘Proper novel’ by the time i decided to write the Graphic version and rolled in at 60k words full of the Rituals i spoke of above. Too many i suppose. With a little forethought anybody could have investigated the Rituals and come face to face with the Eigengrau…something i wouldn’t recommend as yet.
A former project involving Eris, John Dillinger and Longinus a Roman Centurian would see an Erisean Ritual working performed by a spoken word actress, a musical score, a film etc etc as a kind of multi media thing which would have been available to download for a token fee. I was excited about the project, positive and happy. Alas, my Musicians marriage broke up, the Film maker is now receiving mental health actions, and my Actress tried to kill herself. Not doomed but purely the result of actioning a Chaotic entity (Eris). It was funny that at the start of the Project i did warn everybody that the subject matter was strange and magical, they laughed as did i. I laughed knowing that they were probably going to be ok, afterwards i was ashamed it had affected them so much. In fact i rolled around the idea i shouldn’t attempt to put anything about the Rituals on paper at all. Especially after…
But nonetheless i forged on in a fog of weed smoke and confused rambling page after page as i tried to find the rhythm of the Ritual and the essential meaning behind it. Always the meaning, i try to discover it by confusing the brain with various intoxicants allowing the essential ‘truth’ to shine out untouched by the egocentric flowery language used in a typical Word project. I tried my best.
The trouble is, after you come back from the Eigengrau you are faced with a multitude of choices that are given to you by your experience. We become shattered by it, everything we think to be correct and real turns out to have an opposite incorrect and unreal. Imagine you open a Jar of Jam. The lid top is what we think is the start of it, open it and look at the inside of the lid, there’s a little jam on there maybe, we think our efforts have been rewarded, we have discovered, but we have not.
That’s a crap analogy but its the best i can do talking about it in words. The Eigen has no beginning and no end no two sides no Dichotomy at all. There is no Yin or Yang in the Eigen it just ‘Islunt’ a word i had to invent to mean, it maybe or it is maybe probably not maybe. This is the glory of the Eigen, the place where all our ideas and thoughts sink to be used by Entities, Deities, Spirits and Demons to make sense of their own environment and to decide whether or not they have one at all. In even thinking about their existence makes it so…they build things as they discover new ways to manipulate the Eigen to their own design. Not made by God but given a chance to be Gods and define their own worlds within their own experience.
In the Novel John Dillinger meets Longinus the Slayer of the Christ, condememed to walk the Earth until it’s end Longinus has utilised the Eigen for his own benefits. He knows that the fakery of the World is reflected in the way Human beings add their own slices of madness to a world mad enough already. Longinus sees that Dillinger is an ‘Exodept’ a Human that has the ability to adjust the Eigen to his own fantasies and story in ways that Longinus has never seen. Longinus sees that Dillinger will need guidance unless he makes the world last forever like a long running crap TV program like ‘Love Island’ but with blood, death and pain. The story begins and ends with the destruction of the world, hastened by Longinus using the power of Dillingers Exodept skills.
We see also how the World has been made. Many years ago during a Ritual I explored an area around my own experience which i called ‘The Black Iron Prison’ a nod to Phillip K Dick of whom i am a Fan. The area is primarily Heathland, scrub, Heather, stunted trees, always raining and always miserable and Black. At one exploration i came upon an area that looked like Desert. I saw Nine things which i will call ‘Man’ although they were nothing of the sort, sat in a circle endlessly writing and then covering strange symbols in the sand in front of them sat as they were with crossed legs akin to some Meditating Monks or the like. I watched them for a good while as one discovers secret things about objects when one stares at a thing for a long period. I saw and discovered. The Nine were not of the Eigen at all but disparate entities who had learned that Human Beings could in fact be manipulated into actioning the Eigen into the World we now know. I suspected they were here to instill pain and suffering into our Reality and feed from it however i was wrong. They don’t feed, they just need. What do they need? The Eigen.
In the Novel Longinus seeks the Exodept, who, he has been told, exists and where he lives. The Exodept (Dillinger) is in Prison charged with Bank Robbery at the end of his tether being driven mad by the knowledge he possesses but cannot access. Longinus knows that the Ritual death of the Exodept would end the existence of the Nine and a Glorious reunification of the Eigen and a place known only as ‘The Summerland’ a kind of Eigen X20. Longinus is tortured by the knowledge that his curse for ritually killing another Exodept Jesus Christ may be strengthened by killing another (John Dillinger). Longinus struggles with that knowledge all through the novel. In the end Longinus has Dillinger killed by agents of the Nine instead of by his hand. The Eigen is reunified and rejuvenated and the Nine although not destroyed are tricked into thinking the Eigen is still under their control through Rituals performed by Dillinger, Longinus and another cursed Exodept Mathew Hopkins the Infamous Wytchfynder General.
Dillinger forms his paradise, his own Eigen as do the other two co conspirators but there is a problem, and one they had not foreseen. The end of the story sees an enormous realisation of what the Eigengrau and themselves actually are. Through the story i have used symbolic and semantic cues to guide the reader through a system of quick fire Magical workings that i hope will end up with them discovering the Eigen themselves as I have.
I will have the manuscript finished in 23 days time.